Still I Rise

You may write me down in history

With your bitter, twisted lies,

You may tread me in the very dirt

But still, like dust, I’ll rise. Does my sassiness upset you? 

Why are you beset with gloom?

 ‘Cause I walk like I’ve got oil well

Pumping in my living room. Just like moons and like suns,

With the certainty of tides,

Just like hopes springing high

Still I’ll rise. Did you want to see me broken?

 Bowed head and lowered eyes?

 Shoulders falling down like teardrops.

Weakened by my soulful cries. Does my haughtiness offend you? 

Don’t you take it awful hard’

Cause I laugh like I’ve got gold

mines

Diggin’ in my own back yard. You may shoot me with your words

You may cut me with your eyes,

You may kill me with your hatefulness

But still, like air, I’ll rise. Does my sexiness upset you?

 Does it come as a surprise

That I dance like I’ve got

diamonds

At the meeting of my thighs?  Out of the huts of history’s shame

I riseUp from a past that’s rooted in pain

I riseI’m a black ocean, leaping and wide,

Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.

Leaving behind nights of terror and fear

I riseInto a daybreak that’s wondrously clear

I rise Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,

I am the dream and the hope of the slave.

I rise

I rise

I rise. 

All About me..

..Sexy me

..Stylish me

..Silky soft hair

…Baby soft smooth Skin

..Straight white teeth

..Small feet

..Thick thighs

..My eyes mesmerize you.

..Sexy eyes

..My intelligence will boggle you

..My words will tweek you

..My world is wonderful

..Take care of myself so well

..My loyalty to you will amaze you

..Tell me a secret or two I will keep it to my grave

..I have a big family

..I tell you all about me

..You have seen my artwork

..You may have read my poems

..I been to many places in life

..My heart belongs to my love

..I been loyal to my love

..I am faithful to my heart

..I don’t need to lie

..I am honest from the start

..I do tend to fart

..They get rather stinky lol

..I can cook

..I love to eat

..But I maintain my health

..Since I found out I have a tumor

..Now I can’t sleep

..I am always in pain

..I meet my metal sister

..Deborah Steele is the coolest

..I have lots of cool friends

..I know many band members

..I been to many shows

.. Meet many famous people

.. I love doing Photography

..I love Ghost hunting

..I am Wiccan

..I don’t flaunt what I believe in like others

..I love Hockey

..Go Blackhawks

..I love baseball

..Go White Sox

..I hate football

..Bears you suck!

..I forgot to mention my awesome Sexy sister Gloria

..She always there when I need her same for her

..My cool brother Danny. You rock

..My Bestie Mike Schattl also rocks too

..My favorite Metal bands are God Forbid

..I know I have more to write..

But eyes are falling asleep.

I will finish this up later on.

For now goodnight

p.s. I also met another Coolest Friend Beth Carey

She is awesome! She listens to me, I listen to her

Now thats a cool chick.

Love her music. Love her n her lil girl

Rock on Beth!

And best of All I love

my lil Step daughter Nariko!!!\\mm//

 

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Undying Love

Ozzfest 1999 

June 3, 1999 East Troy Wisconsin Alpine Valley 

My Friend  Sandra we won tickets through a Radio station. Well we seen most mentioned above it was fun. I don’t remember seeing SLAYER but anyways. The show had ended I didn’t know where Sandra Was I seen her car in the parking lot but no one there, she had disappeared. I was crying by security guards by the entrance, when a man with long flowing black hair in the wind walked towards me asked me if I needed a ride home. I sniffled and looked at him said yes, well we got in car he introduced himself as a recent Divorced father of a two year old. I told him I was 18 going to be 19, and my name, He held my hand I felt comfortable, well that night we didn’t get back to my house till weekend after, I went with him home to his Rockford home. 

I was inlove, madly in love. The passion, the lust, the fire we both had felt for each other, It was a dream come true love story. I had always imagined my last name to began with a K. He worked, I went to high school ended up finishing hs and I moved in with him too his Rockford home a few months after we met. It was a undying for told love. We ate out lots, I really didn’t cook that well. Till later on in my years I picked up on Cooking, We had thanksgiving with my family that year we met. The following spring we sold his Rockford home and moved into a 4 bedroom apartment my parents had in Chicago. It was blissful for the 3 years we stayed in Chicago with my parents till we moved out to the suburbs. Me and my mother found a 6 bedroom house in Hanover Park we moved there for the first year, than we found another house in Streamwood Illinois, we lived there a Good 7 years. Than we were searching for a bigger house, We found one in Lke County we live here now last 3 years. 

But during the years me and Dave my true love, have done everything together. that couples do. We have had our share of arguements,fights,breakups,cheating, hot wild sex outdoors, traveling,concerts lots of them, maybe 1000 concerts together so far and more to come in future, his battes in life with his familys deaths his parents, his insane brother, his friends, but always in the end he considered my family his only family. Our love is very strong, We been together through it all, especially when I kept falling sick deadly sick, and my surgeries, we lost a few children me being pregnant had miscarriages 2 abortions my haelth and life on the line cause of babies. We than decided together as a team to not to ever have kids, we have a 17 yr old teenager right now. She my stepdaughter she calls me Momma. anyways. Me and Dave been living the good life. I can’t complain, We did are fair share of vacations from September 2012 to November 2013. It had been fun there will be more planned. and more to this story added on in the near future.

Our Love is undying with me and Dave there have been several people who have tried to come in between us, but we have overcome it all and still over come it. Every morning I wake up with butterflies in my stomach my heart racing can’t wait to open my eyes and see my true love standing before me. I had never imagined love to be this grand. I love Dave with all my heart, he has made me change my world around.

till than chow. 

Nonchantingly

Am I insane?

I ask myself this

My mind wanders many times during the day

Many mental images play in my mind

My imagination runs wild and Free

My life is a greatest movie or story novel that would be ever written

Everyday is a new day

New things happen

New Mental images get planted in my brain

My head is overflowing with ideas

I always let them out on my page

In my notes in my art

Even in my cooking

But I never get noticed

Many years I been doing this

Not once a Human being has noticed me

I want to be noticed by someone big

I want my work out there

I want to be known

I want what everyone has

I am almost on the edge of moral insanity

I am gonna call it quits soon

I can’t stay strong no longer

My life is breaking

I am falling apart

I have gotten older

I am not younger no more ‘My writings say my feelings

I write cause I am always sad

For once I want to be happy

Having a kid will not mke me happy

Having a Kid will depress me

I don’t want a child

I want my Artwork noticed

I want to be noticed

It is not too much ask for

I write my words daily

I create many things

I play

I dance

I try to sing

I sleep

I cry

I want to be noticed

I hate being always put back

I want someone too see me

I want someone too see my work

I know I am good

I am not saying I am better

I know all this makes sense

I know I am Smart

I know I have knowledge

Let this be about me

I for once want to shine

I for once want to laugh

I for once want everything to be right

It always goes wrong

My life always falls apart

People think I am a joke

People use me for a fool

I feel this way lots

I wished people would see me the real me

I am not talking about my friends and family

I thank you all for being there for me

I have my haters

I love my haters

But oh well My breath is wasted in this long letter

Satan I summon thee….

Altar has been set

Red Wine tall Vase

Black Candles Fire rising 

Flames dancing

Tattered book opened

Pentagram carved into stone

Swords laying across

Ginger and oils mixed with herbs stewing

Blood Drops from my fingers

Blood falling on Pentagram

Whispering your name

“Lucifer all mighty king”

“Lucifer come to me”

“Lucifer I call upon thee”

Dropping to me knees

Shadows filled the room

A sacrifical must be performed

For he wanted a Goats head

laying goats head before him

My dark lord has come

“Dark Lord I whisper”

Feeling his eyes upon me

My head still bowed before his presence

Lucifer saying

“Raise your head look upon me”

Looking at him I slowly rise

Feeling the heat in his eyes

Seeig this handsome man 

stand before me

A feeling overwhelmed me

His presence made my body

quiver

His soft glance upon me

I felt his eyes undress me

Feeling a sudden urge to step forward

Willing 

I held back

He stepped forward

Put his arms on my waist

Pulled me in

Taunting my lips with his

My body quivered 

My heart thumping 

in such raped pace

Feeling this is a sacrifice

Feeling I must not give in

The lust temptation

overwhelming me

Sexuality arouse

He than pull me closer

We disappeared

I closed my eyes

For I was traveling

He took me to a beauitful place

It was a Place I had always imagined

he laid me down in the feilds

He was on top off me.

Looking down upon me

Nervous I was

My heart pumping faster

My body quivered even more

Feeling this man upon me

His name is Satan

For he is the Devil

Questioning myself

Can I fall in Love with Satan?

How does that work?

Feeling him upon me slowly coming down

We began to kiss

Taste of his lips was 

off pure evil

But evil Tasted ever so

Delicious!

Smirking in my head

Feeling his hands upon my breasts

Feeling his groan against my upper thighs

Knowing this was all wrong

I gave in. 

He took me to heaven

In all the Wrong ways

This was what I never

Expected

I never thought this

I thought 

For this moment

I AM SATANS BITCH!! 

>:)

……….

 

 

The End

By: Tania Zaia.

July 29th 2014

Journey

Within my Journey in life

I have discovered and learned lots

I have gained so much knowledge

Through all these years

I suffered and I healed

I cried and I laughed

I been through lots

It has lead me to a path

Now that I can trust

I put all my hard work and effort

On what I do now a days

I do my best

Creativity is my talent

Art’s are my life

Writing is my game

Music is way to live

Meeting and making new friends

Brings everyone closer

There is a god I of believe

Churches and bibles are

Nothing but bullshit

Everyone is there own

I live to love what I do

I am enjoying my life

Talking to random artists

Legends and locals

I am me

Enjoy me

Take me as I am

Goodnight

 

I want to Revolutinize this world into metal. 

Always Strive for the best.

Keep going till you succeed.. 

Purple Monkeys

 MENTALLY SHATTERED

TRAPPED IN A BOX

THOUGHTS ALL SHUFFLED

CONFUSSION IN MIDST OF THOUGHTS

EYES JUST STARING STRAIGHT AHEAD

NURSES HOLDING ME DOWN

SCREAMING IN PAIN

WHY THEY SHOVELING NEEDLES IN MY ARMS?

WHY AM I BEING BONDED DOWN 

WHERE THE FUCK AM I?

I THINK THIS OVER AND OVER AGAIN

TRAPPED I AM

THEY TRAPPED ME

I AM IN CLEAR DELUSION

HALLICINATION IS WHAT THEY CALL THIS

WATCHING PURPLE MONKEYS FLYING AROUND

THEY ARE MOCKING ME

LAUGHING AT ME

 

SCREAMING PURPLE MONKEY 

“GET AWAY”

“BE GONE”

“STOP LAUGHING AT ME”

“GET AWAY”

 

 

THE DOCTOR’S 

TELL ME THERE ARE NO PURPLE MONKEYS

I SCREAM THERE THEY ARE

PURPLE MONKEYS ARE MOCKING ME

DOCTORS LOOK AT ME BEWILDERED.

SEEING THIS PURPLE MONKEY RIP OFF THE DOCTORS HEAD

THE DOCTORS NOW BELIEVED ME

THERE PARTNER WAS DEAD!

PURPLE MONKEYS FLY AWAY!

I SCREAM!

 

ALL OFF A SUDDEN I WAKE UP

I HAD ONE FUCKEN HELL 

OF MORBID DREAM!!!!!!

 

 

lol

Jake and Emma

Crimson red fills the bowl and

I think I’m going to be sick.

With every thing spinning so

fast I cannot breath. 

Walls closing in and everything

fades. Fashes of light come by, one,

by one. Feeling sleepy not knowing

your name. Not knowing mine. 

There it is. my favorite thing of all this,

 ah the feeling of pain is gone

from before and new form enters me. 

Laying here waiting for you to

come home. I open my eyes and see

flashes of you and me from

before you went. You walk inside. 

You call to me and wait for an answer. 

You hear small light breaths coming

from the bathroom. thinking it is me,

you walk down the hall with a smile. 

the kind that makes your

knees go week. You walk in.

Oh god, is all you can think. 

I’m trying to look up at you but

I can’t move. a cold chill

comes over me as you pick me up. 

You say we are going

to the hospital and that

everything will be ok.

 You rush me in.

 Blood running down.

 The nurse rushes you to a bed so

I can lay down. I can hear you

asking her something.

But I can’t make out the words. 

I feel something cold and

wet touch my face then my arm. 

I feel the prick of a sharp

object go in my right arm. 

The nurse says that I need stitches

because the wound is to deep. 

I feel the thread go in and

out through my arm.

 And a band-aid go around and around.

After I have slept for two

days they let you in. 

I can move

again and open my eyes. 

You say that I got 76 stitches because

the cuts were way to deep.

And that I almost died. 

I pull off the band-aid and look. 

I see over 20 cuts and begin

to cry. You tell me its ok and

we will get some help.

About 5 years later.

 We have two to deal with

ourselves. 

Jake and Emma.

 A beautiful baby boy and baby girl. 

The scars are still there.

 Some times I wish

I could go back 5 years and

change what

I did do so

I can make it right.

Fooski- Short Story

Like example A chick named Beri met a guy offline dating site fooski was name of the site . They had been chatting 4 months prior to meeting . They both they really had connected and were ready to meet . Beri walked into Starbucks of Hilton Ave at. 4 pm . They both said. 4:10 they’d meet there . She saw a man ordering two cakes and coffee. He than turned around called her name almost on a melodic whisper, which was music to Beri ‘s ears . She smiled and he walked up and hugged her tightly whispering in her ear how beauitful she looked. Beri merely blushed and flushed with mixture of feelings . They took a seat and he began the conversation, her eyes had grown wider with awe at his jawline and perfect teeth. His eyes were very stunning his hair tossed back he was sporting of a light blue collared shirt open at the chest a little . She was thinking man this guys sexy .. ( that’s all for now )

New Feelings have arised

.. WARMNESS HAS OVER FLOODED MY ONCE COLD HEART,MY SKIN WAS ALL FLUSHED WITH PALENESS.NOW MY SKIN FLOURISHES WITH COLORS.MY EYES SHINY IN THE MIRROR,LIKE THE STARLIGHT’S TWINKLE AT NIGHT.KNOWING THIS IS A FEELING I HAD ONCE FELT BEFORE.NOT WANTING TO SACRIFICE THE LOSS OF THIS NEW FEELING. I MAKE MATTERS MEET TO MAKE THE HAND ON THE CLOCK TICK RIGHT.I PREPARE TO BATTLE WHATEVER LAYS AHEAD.KNOWING THIS FEELING HAS ARISEN WITHOUT A STREW.KNOWING THIS IS THE ONE FEELING THAT MIGHT BE HELD TRUE.I WILL HOLD ON TO THIS FEELING FOREVER.FOR NOW I KNOW THIS CAN BE IT,